It all started when I was feeling amazing getting cured from my ailments and I thought well if I am doing so well then why not have a little break. What real damage could it do since I have been going strong for 6 month now? Silly thinking, I know, but I really thought I was invincible and good to go at that point. That break happened to be my Honeymoon.
Side note for those that don't know I got married! On August 24th in the lovely town of Port Townsend in their state park. It was absolutely beautiful and exactly what I wanted! The only thing I would have changed was having it go on longer! I couldn't have asked for a more perfect weekend either. My family from Iowa came out and that was amazing because we haven't seen each other in years. My family from Missouri and Cali came and all my dearest friends. Everyone made it so special and unforgettable. Here are some pictures.
The Pre pre look
The Ceremony
A close up, I love how the photographer made me feel
like model in a wedding magazine!
I had to have this gigantic tree in a shot.
Throwing my Bouquet!
Details shot of the rings and the bouquet.
Me and my husband in front of our venue.
The Friends' Barn.
Here is where the story begins.
We planned out Honeymoon in Cabo San Lucas, Mexico. We have been there before and we knew we were going to have a blast. Robert and I kind of struck a deal that I could cheat some on the Honeymoon. We were going to be going to buffets, dinners and bars with tons of delicious food and I didn't want to check myself. I wanted to indulge and enjoy my Honeymoon. So that is exactly what I did. I started out slow though. Even the first night there we ordered room service and the first meal I had in Mexico was completely SCD legal. My habits were still sticking which was good. That next morning we went to breakfast and I had a few yummy pastries and some tortilla chips with sauces that I didn't know the ingredients to. I was taking a walk on the wild side. The wild side of my normal culinary routine.
As the days went on I was eating everything I wanted. I had pastries, desserts, cocktails, carbs, sauces, sugar. Everything I wasn't supposed to have. The weird this was that when I had to go it was the best bowl movements I had had in forever. I was regular as regular could be. I was shocked and so I thought maybe I am all better. So I just kept on eating what ever I wanted even when we came back from the Honeymoon.
It has been exactly 2 months and 2 days since the Honeymoon was over. Not to say that I haven't tried to get back on track with SCD but I have not been successful. I have been doing very good durning the week but once the weekend hits we tend to order out and then I get all the temptations of potatoes, bread, carbs, sugar, sauces. OMG!!! I literally can't stop my self. In addition to gaining like 15 pounds I am having an extremely hard time saying no this go around. I know that my symptoms have started back up and that I need to stop but the devil on my shoulder keeps whispering in my ear "Do you remember how good this all tastes. Eat it. Don't think about the consequences." Where is the angel at anyway? I think she feel asleep or is on vacation. :(
I am now updating my blog in hopes that I will better be able to hold my self accountable and responsible for my actions. Hoping that this will remind and motivate me to be better and eat clean so that I can stay Crohn's Disease free once again. Food is probably the hardest struggle for me and it has been for my whole like. Going from an over weight kid to an underweight young adult I have seen both sides of the spectrum of eating disorders and this diet is tougher that all of that.
Please pray, send good vides or good thoughts my way. I need everything I can get to stay on track.
Thanks everyone! Till next time.
